Saturday, May 31, 2014

Just Thought I'd Share....

Just playing around with Picassa this morning and thought I'd share this. :)

Monday, May 19, 2014

Monday Well Spent!

Well - thanks to my wonderful friend Vanessa - she managed to corral my uncooperative beasty - I got to go for a ride this afternoon! It was such a lovely day - finally some great spring weather! He was filthy... so he got a good brushing. He was a bit more manageable today. He gave me a good ride. I only took him out for just over an hour - it was pretty warm in the sun. I didn't want to push my luck on him too much. Here are some photos I took of him! And he has a pretty new halter. :)

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Today - I Wanted to Ride....

So - I went out to the farm today - all geared up to get out on my horse.
I could NOT catch him for nothin'!
Nobody was home to even help me try to corner him. I took out a bucket hoping that might get his attention. Yeah.... No. I was following him and a half dozen horses were following me because I had a bucket.
Is it bad that I am already thinking about getting a second horse?

So now I am home - about to watch the Preakness.... I will just watch people ride horses on TV....


Sorry - I need to see this....

CALIFORNIA CHROME!!! One more to go..... Wow - what an emotional win!

Anyways.... my trip wasn't a total write off! I got to take a few pictures! :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Mother's Day Sunday Photos

Here are a few of the pics I snapped!

Mother's Day At The Farm

I am not a fan of Mother's Day these days.

I just had my 5th one without my mother. I did ok this year.

My first one, I had to work. It was still pretty fresh on my mind since she had only passed in late February. I endured a long Sunday at work, being reminded by strangers who assume a 27 year old gal still had a mother, to make sure I called my mom that day.

I got home from work to find my then fiancé and now ex drunk and demanding dinner. I asked him for a hand making it and he declined. He returned to his cave to ignore me in favor of a book, pot and booze. I put some meat in the microwave to thaw it and then I sat down on the bed and just cried.

I heard him come upstairs and then he muttered something about me being lazy for not starting dinner and he went back down to his hole. This was one of the first times I had ever had the courage to stand up to him. I marched downstairs, barged into his office and asked 'Do you have a f*cking problem?'
All he responded with was - in his angry ass hole tone was 'Not today.'. I reminded him that he had the luxury of calling his mother that day. He didn't seem to care.

I cooked dinner and ate dinner in tears and silence. He never apologized.

He was a dreadful person. He treated me like dirt. I stayed with him for as long as I did out of fear I guess. The emotional abuse I endured with him has taken a long time to get through. But it has made me who I am today. The proudest moment for me was when I finally got the courage to leave him. I had wanted to a year before - and the last email I sent my mom was telling her that. I put it on the back burner after she died. But I found the strength and I channeled her - and thought about how strong she had to be when she left my dad with 2 kids.

I look at where I am now... I am back home. I have a great job that I am very successful at. I have a vehicle that still has warranty. I can buy things I want without going into credit debt. I do not stress out over how I am going to afford to live. I made my life long dream of having a horse come true.... ALL BY MYSELF. No man. All me. He held me back in life.  I have flourished since I set myself free. I think my mother would be proud.

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Scooter... I have Taken Possesion....

Well - yesterday my Uncle and Allicia delivered my new 4 legged baby to his home.
He was a bit antsy at first - seeing a lot of new horses and some cows. I gave him a good brushing, lots of treats and love and then we got to go for a ride at Hasse lake.
We trailered 6 horses down there for my friend's niece's birthday ride. He loaded onto the trailer like a pro! I am a very proud gal! We got there and it had just started to snow very lightly. He loves going for rides. He wanted to be the leader of the pack... and was always way ahead of everyone. He just gets it in his head to go - and he goes. Guess that's the Walker in him. We need to work on his "autopilot issues" a bit I think - but all in all he is a wonderful trail horse. He was great having 4 little girls fawning all over him and he was over all a real gentleman. I couldn't be happier!
I look back on the tough times that I have had over the last few years and some of the decisions that I had to make and I see that they have all led me to this.
I could have ended up married. Right now I would have an alcoholic and endless misery... but instead I have my freedom, the knowledge that EVERYTHING I have I have worked for myself and I have finally caught the break that I deserve. This is my reward for all of the hurt, struggles and hard work that I have endured.
I am very much looking forward to spending as much free time as I can on him... and I think I have officially given up on finding the perfect man now. I have the guy of my dreams.... he just so happens to be a horse....