Today - I Wanted to Ride....

So - I went out to the farm today - all geared up to get out on my horse.
I could NOT catch him for nothin'!
Nobody was home to even help me try to corner him. I took out a bucket hoping that might get his attention. Yeah.... No. I was following him and a half dozen horses were following me because I had a bucket.
Is it bad that I am already thinking about getting a second horse?

So now I am home - about to watch the Preakness.... I will just watch people ride horses on TV....

THEY'RE OFF!

Sorry - I need to see this....

CALIFORNIA CHROME!!! One more to go..... Wow - what an emotional win!

Anyways.... my trip wasn't a total write off! I got to take a few pictures! :)

Mother's Day Sunday Photos

 

 

 

Here are a few of the pics I snapped!

 

Mother's Day At The Farm

I am not a fan of Mother's Day these days.

I just had my 5th one without my mother. I did ok this year.

My first one, I had to work. It was still pretty fresh on my mind since she had only passed in late February. I endured a long Sunday at work, being reminded by strangers who assume a 27 year old gal still had a mother, to make sure I called my mom that day.

I got home from work to find my then fiancé and now ex drunk and demanding dinner. I asked him for a hand making it and he declined. He returned to his cave to ignore me in favor of a book, pot and booze. I put some meat in the microwave to thaw it and then I sat down on the bed and just cried.

I heard him come upstairs and then he muttered something about me being lazy for not starting dinner and he went back down to his hole. This was one of the first times I had ever had the courage to stand up to him. I marched downstairs, barged into his office and asked 'Do you have a f*cking problem?'
All he responded with was - in his angry ass hole tone was 'Not today.'. I reminded him that he had the luxury of calling his mother that day. He didn't seem to care.

I cooked dinner and ate dinner in tears and silence. He never apologized.

He was a dreadful person. He treated me like dirt. I stayed with him for as long as I did out of fear I guess. The emotional abuse I endured with him has taken a long time to get through. But it has made me who I am today. The proudest moment for me was when I finally got the courage to leave him. I had wanted to a year before - and the last email I sent my mom was telling her that. I put it on the back burner after she died. But I found the strength and I channeled her - and thought about how strong she had to be when she left my dad with 2 kids.

I look at where I am now... I am back home. I have a great job that I am very successful at. I have a vehicle that still has warranty. I can buy things I want without going into credit debt. I do not stress out over how I am going to afford to live. I made my life long dream of having a horse come true.... ALL BY MYSELF. No man. All me. He held me back in life.  I have flourished since I set myself free. I think my mother would be proud.

Scooter... I have Taken Possesion....

Well - yesterday my Uncle and Allicia delivered my new 4 legged baby to his home.

He was a bit antsy at first - seeing a lot of new horses and some cows. I gave him a good brushing, lots of treats and love and then we got to go for a ride at Hasse lake.

We trailered 6 horses down there for my friend's niece's birthday ride. He loaded onto the trailer like a pro! I am a very proud gal! We got there and it had just started to snow very lightly. He loves going for rides. He wanted to be the leader of the pack... and was always way ahead of everyone. He just gets it in his head to go - and he goes. Guess that's the Walker in him. We need to work on his "autopilot issues" a bit I think - but all in all he is a wonderful trail horse. He was great having 4 little girls fawning all over him and he was over all a real gentleman. I couldn't be happier!

I look back on the tough times that I have had over the last few years and some of the decisions that I had to make and I see that they have all led me to this.

I could have ended up married. Right now I would have an alcoholic and endless misery... but instead I have my freedom, the knowledge that EVERYTHING I have I have worked for myself and I have finally caught the break that I deserve. This is my reward for all of the hurt, struggles and hard work that I have endured.

I am very much looking forward to spending as much free time as I can on him... and I think I have officially given up on finding the perfect man now. I have the guy of my dreams.... he just so happens to be a horse....

Just A Few Photos I Took.....

Just wanted to share a few pictures I snapped on Easter Sunday at my Uncle's lady friend's place of the 2 young roan studs she has. They are really handsome fellas....

FINALLY.... It Has Happened.....

Exciting news!! After 30 years of waiting, wishing and hoping and working.... I finally got myself a horse!

Funny story... Back around Christmas, I had mentioned to my Uncle Bob that I was casually looking for a horse and asked if he might keep his eyes & ears open for a good one for me. I had been looking on Kijiji and Facebook - but you never know what you are getting from a stranger when it comes to horses.... I would prefer to have his input where horses are concerned since he has spent his entire 60+ years on this planet around them.

Over the winter I had kinda stopped but had been starting to think about it again lately.

Earlier last week - I has a strange number call my phone and leave a message. I looked the number up online and didn't recognize the name. I meant to listen to it but it had slipped my mind.....

Good Friday morning - I sat down and scoured Kijiji over my coffee.... then I thought to myself 'Maybe I should call Uncle Bob....' THEN... I out of the blue thought about that message... and then it dawned on me - the name... it was that of his lady friend! So I checked the message - that was going to be automatically deleted that day - and sure enough - it was him telling me he had a horse in mind for me and it belonged to her.

So - of course - I drove the 60k out to her farm to take a look at him. It was love at first sight. We took him out for a little ride - and he didn't throw me off. So I bought him! She gave me a great deal on him... I think she just wanted him to be loved. She picked him up from an older couple who had to move into town. She had hoped he might be a good horse for her grandkids, but he has some issues that made him a bit too much for kids to ride him. But - he is the perfect first horse for a 31 year old girl like me!

He is a spunky 23 year old Tennessee Walking Horse. Scooter is his name.

As you can see - the saddle he is sporting is not the saddle I bought last year.... They had one there for sale that was brand new - and comfy... so I bought that too! the saddle that I have - my uncle is gonna fix it up so I will have 2. And of course - as soon as I left the farm - I went out and bought more stuff for him!

I am so very excited! A life long dream has finally come true and I am proud of myself for making it happen. He is going to spend the rest of his days getting spoiled and loved to death by a horse crazy little girl who has waited her whole life to have him. Good Friday 2014 will go down as a GREAT Friday! I can honestly say that I haven't been this ecstatic in a long time... But this last year that I have been back here just keeps getting better and better every day!